I don't want to do this. I don't want to talk about it anymore. I'm tired of it. No one is telling me anything new. It's the same hurts, the same things, the same lessons again and again.
It's like people are saying the same thing over and over, and no one is listening to you?
[Aerith, for all she still sounds quiet, is still empathic, and sympathetic even to Justine's plight. It hurts having ones mistakes- or triumphs- rubbed in your face over and over.]
I'm not trying to make you feel bad, if it helps. Just...wanted to explain what's going on in the background.
They listen. And they say what they want to say anyway. They aren't telling me because they care about me knowing; they say it because it makes them feel better.
It could be that they're hoping you'll become more empathic, sort of...feel what they feel. Not just try to push your nose into it, so to speak.
But that's not something that can be forced. Empathy is...something that people need to be open to, understand over time. So, it could be...missed intentions? Does that clear things up?
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Are you okay Justine?
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[She's quiet for a few moments.]
Thank you for your apology.
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I am sorry.
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And if you want me to, I can ask if he wants to speak with you.
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Can I still come to the Greenhouse? Did you have to take my roses?
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[She sighs.]
Jedao and I are talking about it so he can feel comfortable. It may have to be only when I'm in the Greenhouse, or another possible supervisor.
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He took all of my plants.
I said I would prefer you, but - I understand if you wish differently.
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[Her voice is tired. Soft.]
Or would you just resent me for refusing?
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[She pauses there. Aerith can probably fill in the blanks.]
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[She sighs.]
And that'd burn any bridge we'd have on being friends. It doesn't feel very fair, does it?
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But I do not know how to feel any differently. I am selfish, Aerith. Especially with my friends.
I do not know any other way to be.
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Cloud...especially means so much to me. I love him so very much.
And seeing him like that...reminded me of some things he went through back home. It brought back some old hurts.
I'm not telling you this to hurt you. I just want you to know why I'm feeling the way I am.
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[She grits her teeth and speaks through it.]
I don't want to do this. I don't want to talk about it anymore. I'm tired of it. No one is telling me anything new. It's the same hurts, the same things, the same lessons again and again.
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[Aerith, for all she still sounds quiet, is still empathic, and sympathetic even to Justine's plight. It hurts having ones mistakes- or triumphs- rubbed in your face over and over.]
I'm not trying to make you feel bad, if it helps. Just...wanted to explain what's going on in the background.
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It could be that they're hoping you'll become more empathic, sort of...feel what they feel. Not just try to push your nose into it, so to speak.
But that's not something that can be forced. Empathy is...something that people need to be open to, understand over time. So, it could be...missed intentions? Does that clear things up?
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Does this mean you don't wish to be with me in the Greenhouse?
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You can come.
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It's pretty selfish, I guess.
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