[Alexei stays quiet for a minute after she asks him that. He might be looking at a particular blade of grass or the tip of a finger, somewhere in the space in front of him.]

I don't know, really. I'm... [He rubs the back of his head.]

Abel, he's... he's the one person I've always been one hundred percent sure of here, you know? Even if things haven't always been great. And now I'm just... not.